My Muse is the person that was made for me, we are so aligned in our sexuality. When we parted a couple of days ago, I felt like a part of my soul was extricated; never to be replaced again except by her. But she sounded so hurt that I just had to let her go without letting her know that I would do anything to keep her from suffering.
Alas, we have parted ways once again. I can only hope that fate will bring us together - despite the fact that I tend not to believe in such things.
Despite the fact that I felt this way from the beginning, it is starting to dawn on me that I have also lost a very good friend. Someone I could share myself with without fear of repercussions. I have lost a sounding board, a counselor, an advisor. Someone who would tell me if I was full of shit. She was/is a true friend.
I know I'm being selfish by wanting her back - and that she is probably much happier living her life right now, without being torn apart by conflicting interests. And yet....
In her last note to me she mentioned that I need to record my life so that, when we meet again, I can re-live it with her once more. Perhaps that is what I need to do with this blog.
Thank you, my dear readers (of which there are none) for putting up with my ramblings. We will now return to our regularly scheduled blog. No need to readjust your set, the description of the blog will now be the true reflection of the mission. and as every Little League coach has said, "Let's have some fun out there."
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